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Jun 12 2011

Calling On Fierceness – Issue #75

Worry thoughts about the state of my health have been nipping at my heels of late — much like my new kitten that I rescued, who is literally nipping at my heels, determinedly insisting on sinking her teeth and claws into life and into me! She is a persistent little whirling cactus! Her new big bro Bo (our other cat) is ten times her size and could eat her for breakfast, but to her he is a pony to mount and ride and roll around on and play with. He swats her away and she relentlessly bounds back. She is fearless! And fierce! And she wants to PLAY!

She is my current model for determination and unabashed living! That’s the spirit that helped this little one-pounder survive in the wilds all by herself for days, until a blonde giant (moi) strolled by and she cried out to me with a loud, bellowing meow. With that volume of voice I expected a huge cat, but instead a tiny ball of fur appeared from under the bushes, with an urgent, demanding, attention-commanding MEOW!!!

I need that kind of fierceness now. The universe is demanding of me, “Be HERE now”, NOT in the feared, imagined future. Trying to bring myself back to the present moment once fear thoughts have taken over, can feel as if I’m herding cats. My fears are like feral cats who see danger everywhere, even though love and aid is being offered. When my new kitten chose to trust the love that was offered, she hit the lotto and now is nestled in the lap of luxury. She is reminding me to be brave and trust like she did.

To help me come back to trust, I’ve been reciting in my mind the line from the poem Desiderata, that says, “Whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.” I take a deep breath of relief with that. As someone who has come to the planet to learn and grow and evolve my consciousness, I can see how my soul might have chosen cancer in order to galvanize me to get on with that work. I distinctly remember a time just before my initial diagnosis when I was lying on the couch watching television, feeling lazy and bored, and I had the thought, “What am I doing here? I’m frittering away my time.”

I’m not frittering my time away anymore! With fierce determination, ever since being diagnosed with cancer, I’ve been focused on transforming my hell-raising fears into heaven-raising faith. When I get off track, like I occasionally do, I always come back to my life-affirming practices of focusing on my heart, meditating, gratitude, trust, acceptance, deep breathing, walking in nature, and dancing. “I get up. I walk. I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.”(Rabbi Hillel) That brings me back to an expansive place where I feel like a child at play with colored balls, or, better yet, a kitten at play with EVERYTHING!

We are all gods with amnesia, waking up to who we truly are. Sometimes the universe sends us things to help remind us…like cancer and kittens.  When I think about the challenges we souls take on here on planet earth, I am in awe of our courage and spirit. I agree with Rumi who said, “When you see your beauty, you will become your own idol.”

How about you? Has life been calling on your fierce persistence and determination to return to the present moment and remember your powerful divine magnificence?

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Mar 03 2011

How to Be Really, Truly, Deeply Free & Clear – Issue #68

Rumi said, “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” Our natural state is love, health and wholeness. With cancer cells possibly still remaining in my body (according to my recent PET scan), I am on a full-scale mission to clear, clean and purify myself physically and emotionally, removing the barriers that keep me from love, health and wholeness.

Physically I have been doing a healing regimen that deeply cleans and clears my body (described in my previous newsletter). I am also doing deep cleaning on an emotional level and I want to share with you three powerful tools I’ve combined for optimal inner cleansing. One is called Ho’oponopono, an ancient Hawaiian healing tradition (ho’o means cause and ponopono means perfection). It’s modern form is taught by Dr. Hew Len, who is famous for having healed an entire ward of criminally insane people at Hawaii State Hospital in the 1980’s, without therapy, by simply doing Ho’oponopono on himself.

Its basic premise is that everything in our life is a projection – just like in a dream, it is all an aspect of ourselves. Whatever shows up in our life is our memories and old programming replaying ‘out there’, showing us where we are blocked from our true divine self. The way to clear these programs and return to our pure essence state is to say these words over and over until we are clear, “I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.”

Conflict “out there” is cleared “in here”, and once clear we are one with the Divine. The beauty part is that in that clear, higher vibrational state we attract miracles. That state can be maintained by repeatedly saying to ourselves throughout the day, “I love you” and “Thank you”. Doing this on a daily basis aligns us with a state of grace place where life unfolds easefully and magically. That’s where I want to live!

I have found that doing EFT while doing Ho’oponopono makes it even more powerful. EFT stands for Emotional Freedom Technique, an extremely effective healing method that involves tapping on specific meridian points to clear negative beliefs, feelings and programs from our body and bring in new desired beliefs (see P.S. below for more info).  When you add to that some deep, slow breaths with long out-breaths, it further clears away the charge, since our reactive programming is locked in by shallow breaths and is set free by deep, full breaths.

I recently had an opportunity to put these three clearing superpowers to the test. I was having a conflict with someone in my life that set my two inner chickens to fighting. One chicken, Chicken Little, felt victimized, with feathers ruffled, lots of plaintive squawking, and she wanted to fly the coop. The other chicken, my glorious Warrioress Chicken Supreme, wanted to fly with the eagles and thus kept bringing me back to the awareness, “If it’s in your life, it’s in you. Now is an opportunity to clear, clean, and heal this inside yourself.”

While one part of me was having a furious uprising, the other was having a spiritual “upwising” (as Swamibeyondanonda would say). As I witnessed myself preparing for a defensive battle, I thought, “Since it’s my creation, why not prepare for peace?” This was a new thought for me – instead of imagining a battle ahead, I could imagine peace.

Realizing the other person was mirroring a wounded part of myself, I loved that wounded part in me. Whenever I felt the furious wet-hen uprising within, I’d repeat the words, “I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.”  I added the meridian tapping and deep, slow breaths and the result was a peaceful resolution of the conflict. It proves the saying, “My how you’ve changed since I’ve changed.” When I shift inside, my world shifts outside. I can choose love and peace, and clear whatever gets in the way of that with Ho’oponopono, meridian tapping, and deep slow breaths.

There’s a wonderful story about Nelson Mandela (as told in the book Buddha’s Brain) who was imprisoned for 27 years. His greatest despair was that he would lose contact with loved ones, as he was only allowed to receive letters from them about every 6 months. He didn’t want to live without love so he decided he was going to bring love to the guards. By loving them it was hard for them to treat him harshly, therefore guards were frequently replaced; but he would simply love the new ones too. Despite the harsh barriers of prison and hard labor, he chose to focus on love and that is what he experienced. Though he was in prison he was FREE of hatred and anger.

These three tools, Ho’oponopono, tapping, and deep slow breaths, help to release old programming and clear away the barriers to love, healing and wholeness. This results in miracles and major life shifts. Toward that end, I am doing the Ho’oponopono with my body and the cancer, tapping and breathing, and saying, “I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.” As I continue to do this healing work I’m hoping that down the road the results of my next PET scan will declare, “You are clean! You are free of cancer!”

Maybe even more important to me would be if one day I were able to declare that I am emotionally “free of charge”, having successfully cleared away all my hot buttons. That is the ultimate freedom – what a monumental accomplishment that would be! Then I would be easefully, peacefully residing in the state of grace place, in the Divine, in the field “out beyond right doing and wrong doing” that Rumi talks about. At the end of my life I want my epitaph to read, “Really, truly, deeply free at last!”

How about you? Do you have barriers within that are keeping you from love, health and wholeness? It’s all an inside job – LOVE, TAP and BREATHE your way through those barriers and celebrate becoming free and clear and open to miracles!

In love,

Jan Jacobsen


Free EFT e-book


Page 12-15 shows where to tap and describes the process

UsingEFT and Ho’oponopono together video


Great book on Ho’oponopono

Zero Limits – The Hawaiian System for Wealth, Health, Peace & More

By Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len


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Dec 03 2009

Play Your Way Into Your ‘Right’ Mind – Issue #34

Are you in your ‘right’ mind, in a spacious place, tasting life anew in the Now? Or are you in your left mind, stuck out in left field, munching on rehashed leftovers? That’s what our left brain does — it recycles mind chatter and generates a wall of words that separates us from the peace and stillness of our right brain. We can’t function in the world without our left brain, we need it for language, numbers, structure, and boundaries; but sometimes we get trapped within those boundaries. In the book ‘My Stroke of Insight’, brain scientist Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor writes about her massive stroke that blew out the left hemisphere of her brain. With the din of her left brain quieted, she was immersed in the expansive, present-moment, right brain hemisphere — the portal to a peaceful paradise.  She paints a vivid and fascinating picture of her experience.

I have found that my left brain can be like a manic hamster on a wheel, going round and round, spinning yarns, worries, and what ifs, ad nauseum. It is so dizzying that I need a drama-mine pill — a reality pill to remind me that this drama is mine and what traps me in the drama is the spin I am putting on things, the stories I am constantly recycling. The left brain loves drama. Stinking thinking, judgments, catastrophizing, shoulding on ourselves and others, these are all left brain past times, and future times — anywhere but here and now times.

On the other side, the right brain is right here, right now, feeling peaceful and calm, experiencing oneness and union and a sense that all’s right with the world. Being in the right brain is like taking a chill pill, “I’m cool. Life is good. Everything is One-derful.”

I think that there is a certain beauty to the design. The hell of left brain feelings of discord, worry and separation instills in us an impetus to seek the heaven of right brain feelings of peace and union. It could be all part of the divine plan to motivate us to find our way back Home. When I’m out in ‘left’ field, judging, worrying, and criticizing, I am compelled by the discomfort of that place to take a field trip to find the wordless, wondrous, spacious place of my right mind where I think not, therefore I AM. As Rumi so eloquently put it:

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,

there is a field, I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,

the world is too full to talk about.

Ideas, language, even the phrase each other

doesn’t make any sense.”

How do we get to that field? First notice and identify where you are; when you hear yourself judging and spinning yarns, when you’re aware that scurrying, worrying thoughts are spinning on the wheel in your mind, know that you are in your left hemisFEAR. Take the wheel and turn to the right, telling yourself, “Right here, right now is all there is, and right now all is well — breathe, relax, trust.” The left-brain chatter quiets, the body relaxes and you become peacefully encircled in the serene embrace of the right-brain hemiSHERE.

There are many other ways to quiet left brain chatter and turn on right brain peace, such as prayer, meditation, tai chi, yoga, walks in nature, breath work, and calling on your faith in a higher power. However, the most fun and joyous way for me is to sing and dance and play. Reverend Michael Beckwith says that praying and playing are the same energetic. That makes sense, since they are both in the realm of the right brain. Playfulness is next to godliness.

Every morning I sing and dance and play to the Beatles song, “Twist and Shout”. “Well shake it up baby now. Twist and Shout!” I shake my body like a dog shakes water off its’ fur; this shakes free left hemisFEARs and tensions, and wakes my spirit right up — it is shake and wake time!

Sometimes when I find myself lost in “poor little me” thoughts, feeling unloved, unlovable, and ‘left’ out, I tickle myself awake by singing The Worm Song:

“Nobody likes me.  Everybody hates me.

I’m gonna go eat worms.

Long thin, slimey ones; short, fat, juicy ones.

Itsy, bitsy, squirmy little worms.”

Humor is a great waker upper and before I know it I have lightened up and transformed a can of worms into butterflies!

When I notice that I am worrying, fretting, and forgetting the big picture, I shift myself by singing this song I wrote (along with my friend Nicola Gordon) to the tune of The Ants go Marching One by One. It’s called The Now Song. Sing along with me!

“There’s nothing I have to do today, hurrah, hurrah.

There’s nothing I have to do or say, hurrah, hurrah.

Just be in the NOW all the way.

That’s all I have to do today.

Breathe in, Breathe out,

Sing and dance and play.”

That always brings me right here, right now. What are ways you bring yourself into the spacious field of right-brained peace, unity and well-being?  I’ll meet you there!

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Aug 05 2009

Be Aware (not Beware) of Unexpected Visitors – Issue #22

I’ve been waking up in the morning for the last few days with some nasty bug bites on my body. Not many, four so far, but they are big, red and painful. Last night I was afraid to fall asleep, thinking that IT, whatever it is, would come out in the dark of night when I’m sleeping and vulnerable and bite me again! I’m thinking it may be one of those big, thick, gnarly-looking black spiders. I imagine it cunningly waiting for me to fall asleep so it can crawl onto my body and sink its’ fangs into me like a mini vampire. Is it any wonder that I was wide awake until 3 in the morning!?

I believe that life is a mirror, and that whatever shows up in my life is reflecting some part of me. I asked myself what this is trying to tell me. The thought came to me…something is ‘eating’ at me. What is it? I sat with that question for a few seconds and then I realized what it is – I am afraid that cancer may still be lurking in my life, waiting to take a bite out of me, or it may already be gnawing away in the dark unknown of my internal body. Cancer is something that literally eats at us – it ate my uterus!

I had decided to try and stop dwelling on it, like my brother who stopped thinking about his brain aneurysm and it eventually calcified. But there is a very fine line between not dwelling on something and repressing it. How do you know when you have let something go or are just whistling in the dark? For me, that’s easy – sitting on my feelings is very much like accidentally sitting on my felines – they very quickly bite me in the butt and I am forced to face them.

As I am now facing my fears, I realize once again that the worst part of cancer for me is the anxiety about it. That is what I am resisting, that is what was eating at me like a spider in the black night. What I resist persists, in one form or another.

Now that I’ve brought my creepy crawly thoughts into the light of awareness, it ‘s time to do some Mental Aikido with them, coming into alignment with them, telling myself, “I know that you’re scared. It’s okay to feel scared. Let yourself feel it. It is natural to feel scared about cancer. It’s something we don’t have much control over. That is scary.” Deeper breaths come as I allow the fear and I am ready for the uptwist. “It’s true that cancer might reoccur, AND, right now you are fine, right now you are healthy and strong and right now is all there is.” I take a big breath into open space.

I am accepting that fear is a recurring visitor to my life, a teacher that is helping me strengthen my faith muscles, build my ‘trust’ fund, and create a belief in a friendly universe. It is also teaching me to feel compassion for myself and for others who suffer with fear and anxiety. I want to hug us all in love and strength and say, “Yes, I know what that feels like. I understand. Just know that we are so much bigger than our fear. We are so much vaster than a body. We are so loved and watched over.” Fully feeling my fear always leads to feeling the loving presence of my Big Soul Self.

Is there something in your life that is trying to get your attention, something that is ‘bugging’ you, some disowned part of you that is eating at you? Shine the light of awareness on it, and invite it to the party – there’s plenty of space for all of God’s critters that show up.


This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,?

Some momentary awareness comes?

As an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!?

Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,?

Who violently sweep your house?

Empty of its furniture,?

Still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out?

For some new delight.


In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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