Jul 16 2009
On Sunday Tom and I drove up the coast to pick some peaches at the beautiful El Capitan Ranch, where groves and gardens adorn the hillside overlooking the ocean. Everything on the land was thriving – there were huge, fragrant, happy looking roses of every color, a datura tree resplendent in angel trumpets, succulent peaches, and oil rich avocados. The woman who owns and works the land told us how she nourished everything that grew there with a special ingredient – love. She is in a heartfelt love relationship with the land, the trees, the plants, the flowers. She told us that she talks and listens to them, and they guide her in how to care for them. That love gave birth to the sweetest, juiciest peaches I have ever eaten. (Love tastes good!).
I believe that when we are in love with what we do we are guided and wonderful things come from that. I have been in a love relationship for over 25 years with my muse, creating crafts to sell at the Sunday Santa Barbara Arts and Crafts Show. I named my company after my muse, A-Muse Ink. Over the years this love has spawned many “children”. One of the first of these children was a little pig, which came into being this way: I said to my muse, “I need something that will make people say, ‘That’s too cute, I have to have it.’” I wanted it to be something that was easy and inexpensive to make. Then a vision came to me of a pig wearing sunglasses lying on a rock, “bacon in the sun”. That day, in magical synchronicity, just the right materials and equipment to easily make the pig presented themselves. After a period of labor I gave birth to my Bacon in the Sun line of pig magnets and flying pigs. Through the years I have often heard people say about them, “That’s too cute, I have to have it”. Those little guys helped me bring home the bacon.
In recent years I’ve been doing a daily meditation where I imagine shimmering light showering onto me, into me, and all around me. I wanted my booth at the craft show to shimmer like that. An idea came to me of butterflies balancing from a thread that dangled from a wire attached to a rock. I found the perfect holographic shimmering material to make them with, and my dancing butterflies were soon born. My booth shimmered in the sun as they danced and sparkled in the breeze, delighting me and my customers.
Many other ideas have come to me in this way. I’ve found that the creative process is like the birth process – it’s best when it begins with love. From that love, conception occurs. Once I conceive an idea, it is time to let it gestate and develop. Then I go into labor, doing the grunt work, which eventually results in birthing the idea into form. Finally I present my baby to the world. Some of my “children” became big stars – a line of Animal Guardian Angel Pins I created was sold in stores all over the country.
I have loved being in relationship with my crafty muse and with the Arts and Crafts Show all these years. However, relationships can eventually become stagnant, the joy is gone and we fall out of love. I was feeling that with the show – it had lost its sparkle for me – it became more a drudgery of labor than a joy of birth. I was feeling labor pains for something new to be born. Then, several months ago, I was diagnosed with uterine cancer. I don’t know if the cancer was born of that stagnancy, which in turn gave birth to the impetus to do something new that excites my soul and stirs my juices. What I do know is that is the result. During these several months I’ve taken a leave of absence from the show, and in that time I have been developing a relationship with my writing muse. We have intimate conversations, and I listen and receive guidance. I have fallen in love, and that love is birthing these “muse” letters.
There is a law of the Universe that inflow needs to outflow and outflow needs to inflow. I had been inflowing a lot of information, spiritual learning, and growth over the years, but I wasn’t outflowing very much of it, I wasn’t sharing it. The pressure built and the dam has burst, and like a birthed aliveness, creativity flowed out in the form of writing.
I feel excited about this relationship with my writing muse – Tom-Cruise-jumping-on-Oprah’s-couch excited! This new love is juicy and sweet, like the peaches at El Capitan Ranch. While I was dealing with the cancer, I felt more captivated by the joy of writing than the fear of cancer. It is a loving partnership that I nurture by taking walks in nature, and eating healthy foods that keep me clear-headed and better able to connect with that higher part of myself. Like any good relationship, the more I talk to it, the more it responds; the more I listen, the more I hear. Sometimes my mind is blank, I don’t know what to write and my muse assures me, “Relax, just listen, it will come.” And it does.
Commitment is an important part of relationship. Therefore, I am committing to this new relationship by publicly declaring my love and letting go of my old relationship. I feel a little scared and sad about that. My longtime relationship with my crafty muse and the Arts and Crafts Show has been a central part of my life for over 25 years. It has shaped and formed my week. It has been a steady dependable income. My mind wonders, “How is this new relationship going to work?” Yet my higher self is urging me to take the leap into the unknown. As I wrote in a prior newsletter, the quote keeps coming to me, “Do not be too timid and squeamish about your actions – All life is an experiment.” Higher Self is compelling me to “Go where the love is and trust you will be guided.” And so I am.
Are you in a love relationship with where you are and what you are doing in your life? Are you feeling urges to go where the love is? Trust that when you follow the love, all that you need will come to you.