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May 07 2013

I’m Still Here! Issue #101

It’s hard to believe it was 3 years ago this month that I began chemo and radiation treatment for recurrent uterine cancer. After completing the 6 weeks of daily radiation and weekly chemotherapy, the doctor gave me a poor prognosis, but…I’M STILL HERE! Alive and kicking! Feeling pretty darn good! Back then I didn’t know if I should make my 6 months dental cleaning appointment, or buy new clothes or green bananas. Now I have a closet full of new clothes, a mouth full of clean teeth, and a kitchen full of green bananas.

My favorite quote is: “Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over it became a butterfly.” We never know what’s going to happen. Things can seem bleak but somehow turn out better than we can imagine. What looked like the end of the world to me was the beginning of a more vibrant, purposeful life.

In the four years since I was first diagnosed, I have nestled more fully into the present moment. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know what the present holds: it holds ME, in a cushy, cozy, comforting embrace. I’m all right right now and right now is all there is. Admittedly, there are times when I feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop, but most of the time I’m kicking up my heels doing the happy dance and enjoying life. It’s all gravy. Some days I don’t even think about cancer at all.

One thing I’m doing the happy dance about is writing. Even though my newsletters have been fewer and farther between, I’m still writing, but in a different form. If you’re on Facebook you may have seen my daily posting of my sayings with my watercolor backgrounds (one saying per day). I feel like a child at play with colorful words and it is deeply satisfying that these words may be of service to someone.

I used to live a block away from Ashleigh Brilliant, the epigram author, and I’d see him walking around the ‘hood deep in thought contemplating new epigram sayings. I thought, “What a great life that must be!” Now I’m doing it! And it IS a great life! (I love how seeds planted long ago have a way of sprouting up unexpectedly years later.)

An added bonus for me is that sending these writings out into the world sometimes triggers my “Who do you think you are” critic; this is perfect because I get to do some inner healing work around that. Oh boy, another growth opportunity! I remember a cartoon where Dennis the Menace is being punished, sitting in the corner facing the wall, and the caption reads, “I’m Dennis, that’s who I am, that’s what I should have said!” When my critic scolds, “Who do you think you are”, my soul chimes in, “Who do you KNOW you are?” I am a soul at play, learning and growing and sharing what I’m learning with others, having great fun one day at a time.

So, if things are looking gloomy and life is giving you a poor prognosis, hang in there! I am living proof that shift happens, even better than we can imagine!

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen


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May 01 2011

Amazing Surprises, Awesome Twists, and Spellbinding Coincidences Ahead! – Issue #72

Psss-s-s-s-t-t, S-h-h-h-h-h-h!

Around the bend, in the unseen, arising from the very uncertainties that may now seem to taunt you, there are some amazing surprises, awesome twists, and spellbinding coincidences about to emerge that you can’t even now imagine.


The Universe

This was the perfect Note from the Universe (from Mike Dooley at Tut.com) that I received last week. One year ago this month I had begun my 6-week radiation and chemo treatment for recurrent uterine cancer and was deeply immersed in the misery of nausea, weakness, and the dismal awareness that the chances of the grueling treatment working were slim. It was difficult to imagine back then that a year later I’d still be here…thriving!

With time possibly limited, I was motivated this year to immerse myself in the present moment, savoring it like delicious candy, and to my great delight, time has stretched like taffy into a sweet eternal Nooooow! The quality of time has literally changed for me. I don’t just know, I feel that right now is all there is. Whenever my mind races into a feared future, I say “Whoa Nelly!”, and take deep slow breaths, bringing my mind back to the bounty of this nourishing present moment. This is a great treasure I have found!

Another great treasure that this year has brought me is the priority of focusing on the healing, wholing, holy energy of love. For the rest of my life, love is what I want to create and where I want to dwell. How much I have loved in this life is something I believe I take with me when I go.

I have also lasered into living my life on purpose, getting on with what I came here to do — writing from my heart and soul and sharing it with others. It is a treasure beyond measure to think that I can be of help in this way.

This year I have learned to not sweat the small stuff, but instead to celebrate the big stuff, like the present moment, love, and living a purposeful life. What a bountiful banquet I have found myself at! I couldn’t have known a year ago when things seemed so dire, that a more vibrant, meaningful, luscious life was about to unfold.

“Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.”

Last week I saw the documentary, I Am, created by Tom Shadyac, a highly successful director of comedy hits like Bruce Almighty, Liar Liar, and The Nutty Professor. In 2007 he was in a bike accident, which damaged his arm and his head, leaving him with Post Concussion Syndrome. He suffered intense pain, mood swings, and ringing in his head for many months. He didn’t think he was going to make it, and he began to welcome death.

Faced with death, he asked himself, “If this is it for me – if I really am going to die – what do I want to say before I go? What will be my last testament?” Miraculously, with this new sense of purpose, his symptoms began to subside, allowing him to focus on and create the heart-opening, soul-stirring, mind-expanding film, I Am. In it he explores what’s wrong with the world and how we can help make it right. What he ultimately discovered is that there is more right about the world than wrong.

Can you remember times when things looked bleak, but turned out even better than you could imagine? When we hang in there, twists and turns and coincidences present themselves, and our life miraculously goes from sucky to succulent, from yucky to YUM!  No matter how things may seem, be open for surprises and miracles!

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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