Feb 08 2011
I have made a big decision…I’ve decided to get a PET CT scan and find out what is happening with the cancer in my body – Is it still there? Is it spreading? Is it completely gone? Up until now I haven’t wanted to know (and doctors said there was nothing more they could do anyway). I’ve been reluctant to know because I’m aware that my attitude affects my health – I know that imagining myself whole and healed, as I’ve been doing, turns on healing genes, and stress turns them off. I didn’t want to risk stressing out and turning off the healing genes.
What is different now are a couple of things: For one, I’ve discovered an alternative treatment called Protocel (see the P.S. below) that is said to heal cancer about 50% of the time. The data and testimonials are very encouraging for all stages and types of cancer, so if I do still have cancer, I have a plan. (And, it is just possible that a scan will show that the cancer is already completely gone. How cool would that be!)
What else is different is that I no longer feel my attitude would plummet if I learned the cancer is still in me, at least not for long. I am willing to fully feel whatever waves of feelings come up and surf them back to solid ground where I remember I am loved, I am guided, I am watched over, and I am right where I’m supposed to be. One thing life has taught me is that my attitude creates heaven or hell and I am responsible for my attitude. As the saying goes, “Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we respond to it.”
Tom and I were recently considering a trip to the beautiful island of Kauaii where we could stay for free for seven days in a timeshare gifted to us by dear friends. I started researching the island and found out it is a lush garden paradise, AND it is overrun by feral chickens and roosters! Some people think they’re funny little critters and aren’t bothered by them, some even think they’re beautiful, but others think that the constant cacophonous squawking and cockadoodle-dooing make it seem like little pointy-beaked devils have turned paradise into hell. It is all in the eyes and ears of the beholder. I am sensitive to noise and it would be a ‘hell’ of a challenge for me, but if I really wanted to I think I could reframe the little peckers into heavenly creatures! It all depends on what I choose to focus on.
It’s like the story about the Cherokee grandfather who is telling his grandchild about two wolves inside him. I’d like to tell you my version of that story: A Grandfather says to his grandchild, “A fight is going on inside me between two chickens. One chicken is always…well…feeling kind of chicken – worried and squawking and nit picking about every little thing. The other chicken is strutting its stuff, singing with joy, feeling like one of God’s beloved creatures, trusting it won’t be deep fried and become someone’s dinner, knowing that even if that happened, it is an eternal being and life will go on in another form. This same fight is going on inside of everyone.” His grandchild asked, “Which chicken will win, Grandfather?” The grandfather simply replied, “The one you feed.”
Even though I can be a big chicken at times, I can also be a brave chick filled with hope and faith – that is the one I intend to feed. But if the fearful chicken in me starts squawking, I will just love it, pet its ruffled feathers, allowing it to be where it is, until it calms down and transforms into the faith-filled chick that knows I am safe, I am loved, and all is well no matter what happens.
I don’t have much control over what happens in life but I do have control over how I choose to perceive and respond to it. I am ready to face what is happening in my body and will not chicken out on getting the PET scan, though I might squawk a little bit, it is kind of scary. But I know I can cockadoodle do this! If the scan shows there’s no more cancer, I will crow about it from the rooftops! If there is cancer I will take the Protocel and if it works I will also crow about it for all to hear. If it doesn’t work, well then, I will fly the coop when the time comes, moving on to the next great adventure.
Do you have two chickens fighting inside you? Which one are you feeding? They’re both God’s children. Give them a hug from me.
Protocel is an inexpensive, non-toxic liquid formula that thousands of people have used to successfully heal themselves of cancer. It was developed over the course of fifty years by an American chemist named Jim Sheridan, who as a teenager had a strong belief in God and miracles and he fervently prayed to be of service by discovering a cure for cancer. He began having dreams about a formula that eventually became Protocel. To read more about Protocel go to http://outsmartyourcancer.com/. Another great website is http://www.elonnamckibben.com/ (which contains an inspiring account of one woman’s experience with Protocel as well as an amazing account of Jim Sheridan’s journey with developing it, as told by his son).