Sep 14 2013

Unshakeable Tranquility – #103

My husband Tom told me recently that he is aiming for a state of unshakeable tranquility in his life. That got me thinking – I realized that, to me, tranquility is unshakeable only when I’m unattached to outcome, when I’m willing to roll with whatever’s happening. “Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace amid the storm.” Resisting is what causes my suffering and shatters my tranquility – resisting pain makes pain more painful (not to mention, what I resist persists!)

This is an ongoing learning for me. Everyday I go for a nature walk behind my house and enjoy the peace and beauty along the way…that is…until I get to a certain house where a scrappy little dog often charges out into his yard, with teeth bared, fiercely barking at me. When I get near that house I start to cringe and thoughts creep in like “I hate that little devil dog! He destroys my peaceful walk!”

Then I catch myself, I take some deep breaths and affirm: “I am willing to hear the dog bark. I am willing to feel whatever feelings come up about it. I am willing to be present with the barking dog and all my feelings. I am willing to feel peaceful even if the dog is barking.” My whole body relaxes.

That little barking dog is training me to enter the state of unshakeable tranquility. He’s not the devil after all, he’s my little furry adversity angel. And my daily walk is not just a peaceful foray in nature – it’s a soul workout where I’m learning to relax my resistance and strengthen my willingness to be present with whatever’s happening.

This is my continuing learning on my cancer journey. Three years ago after completion of my chemo and radiation treatment when the doctor told me the tumor had been reduced but not eliminated, I wrote this: “Right now I’m in a place of willingness – I am willing to be present with whatever comes up. I am willing to feel whatever feelings are here. I am willing to experience complete healing. I am willing to experience death. I am willing.”

The ultimate freedom from suffering is being willing to chill with any ill, AND being willing for everything to work out even better than I can imagine (so far, that has been the case).

I’ve always had one foot out the door of life, not fully committed to being here, mainly because I wanted to avoid and escape suffering. My cancer diagnosis over 4 years ago was a wake up call – “Are you IN or are you OUT?” I thought I had fully committed to being here, but I realize I still have had a toe out the door.

My eyes had gotten blurry with cataracts and my world was disappearing around me. I was reluctant to have them removed because, with my cancer uncertain, I thought I might just be rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic.

But this month I finally went for cataract surgery and lens replacement in both eyes. That was my statement to the Universe, “I am willing to be here, to feel fully, to see clearly, no matter what is happening.” Now my world has gotten crisper, brighter, more colorful, and more solid. I’m seeing clearly the beauty of this life, AND I’m seeing all the cobwebs and dust bunnies and wrinkles that had been obscured before. But, I am willing to be here with ALL there is, learning how to live in a state of unshakeable tranquility.

In Love,

Janet Jacobsen

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May 29 2013

A Little Bit of Danger, A Whole Lot of Aliveness – Issue #102

I just received my latest cancer test results. They show that I’m still in the ‘faintly positive’ range. That means I still have a little bit of cancer in me.  A part of me would love to be declared ‘cancer free’ so that I can completely relax about it. But another part of me, my Big Soul Self, LIKES that I still have a little bit of cancer!

It is the kick in the can(cer) that’s keeping me awake, bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and motivated to savor this sweet life. Every day I have two small squares of rich, creamy, high quality dark chocolate (sweetened with a healthy sweetener). I let each bite slowly, sensually melt in my mouth and try to make it last as long as I can. I’m savoring my life in that same way: feasting my eyes on Tom’s sweet face, luxuriating in my time with him and loved ones, not taking anyone or anything for granted.

I’ve heard of people who’ve had a near-death experience that ignited in them a more vivid sense of joy and appreciation of life. Yet as time goes by, for many of them, that vivid aliveness begins to fade. Mine is not fading – that little bit of cancer is keeping me wide awake! How perfect is that?!

When I view this as the perfect design of my soul, it helps me relax into it, trusting that higher forces are at work here. That feels so much better than thinking that I’ve screwed up somehow, that I’m doomed, that I’m just unlucky.

My soul is in charge. I’m right where I’m supposed to be. That’s the story I’m telling myself, and I know that the story we tell ourselves has a powerful impact on our bodies and beings. Einstein said: “The most important decision we make is whether we believe we live in a friendly or hostile universe.”

That decision affects us on a physical level; when we trust the universe, it helps us relax, which enhances our life AND our immune system. Fearing and distrusting the universe stresses us, and suppresses our immune system. Therefore, relaxing about having cancer can help heal it! And the only way I can relax about cancer is by trusting that it is all perfectly part of the grand plan of my higher self.

In addition, when I perceive my cancer as a soul-generated growth opportunity, I am filled with awe and respect for the courage of my Powerful, Wow-erful Big Soul Self! I ask myself, “Who ARE you!?” I always thought I was the world’s biggest fraidy cat, but I’ve discovered that the soul that I am is a rip-roaring, bad-ass Lionness! One day when I was appreciating the perfection of it all, my Lionness enthusiastically exclaimed to Tom: “I’m so happy to have cancer!” That spontaneous declaration surprised us BOTH!

With this little bit of cancer I have no physical pain, and, to be sure, if I were suffering with pain or chemo and radiation (like I did 3 years ago) I would not be such a happy cancer camper. (I’m not a fan of physical suffering – saint I ain’t!)

But right here, right now, I am alive and thriving. And, no matter how much time I have, I know that, just like with chocolate, it’s the quality that counts, not the quantity.

Are you having challenges in your life? How is it perfect? How is it all part of the grand plan of your courageous, magnificent Big Soul Self?

In Love,

Janet Jacobsen

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May 07 2013

I’m Still Here! Issue #101

It’s hard to believe it was 3 years ago this month that I began chemo and radiation treatment for recurrent uterine cancer. After completing the 6 weeks of daily radiation and weekly chemotherapy, the doctor gave me a poor prognosis, but…I’M STILL HERE! Alive and kicking! Feeling pretty darn good! Back then I didn’t know if I should make my 6 months dental cleaning appointment, or buy new clothes or green bananas. Now I have a closet full of new clothes, a mouth full of clean teeth, and a kitchen full of green bananas.

My favorite quote is: “Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over it became a butterfly.” We never know what’s going to happen. Things can seem bleak but somehow turn out better than we can imagine. What looked like the end of the world to me was the beginning of a more vibrant, purposeful life.

In the four years since I was first diagnosed, I have nestled more fully into the present moment. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know what the present holds: it holds ME, in a cushy, cozy, comforting embrace. I’m all right right now and right now is all there is. Admittedly, there are times when I feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop, but most of the time I’m kicking up my heels doing the happy dance and enjoying life. It’s all gravy. Some days I don’t even think about cancer at all.

One thing I’m doing the happy dance about is writing. Even though my newsletters have been fewer and farther between, I’m still writing, but in a different form. If you’re on Facebook you may have seen my daily posting of my sayings with my watercolor backgrounds (one saying per day). I feel like a child at play with colorful words and it is deeply satisfying that these words may be of service to someone.

I used to live a block away from Ashleigh Brilliant, the epigram author, and I’d see him walking around the ‘hood deep in thought contemplating new epigram sayings. I thought, “What a great life that must be!” Now I’m doing it! And it IS a great life! (I love how seeds planted long ago have a way of sprouting up unexpectedly years later.)

An added bonus for me is that sending these writings out into the world sometimes triggers my “Who do you think you are” critic; this is perfect because I get to do some inner healing work around that. Oh boy, another growth opportunity! I remember a cartoon where Dennis the Menace is being punished, sitting in the corner facing the wall, and the caption reads, “I’m Dennis, that’s who I am, that’s what I should have said!” When my critic scolds, “Who do you think you are”, my soul chimes in, “Who do you KNOW you are?” I am a soul at play, learning and growing and sharing what I’m learning with others, having great fun one day at a time.

So, if things are looking gloomy and life is giving you a poor prognosis, hang in there! I am living proof that shift happens, even better than we can imagine!

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen


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Feb 25 2013

How to Magnetize Blessings Into Your Life – Issue #100

I have a friend who wanted more love in her life so she set her watch to beep once an hour to remind her to take a deep breath and choose to feel lovable, loved, and loving. Another friend said his watch beeped every hour, but it just reminded him that he’s an idiot because he doesn’t know how to turn it off. We choose what belief we want to reinforce.

I’ve been reminded of this lately as a looming doom and gloom has been lowering the boom. I’ve had an ongoing staph infection for several weeks, and the antibiotics I took for the past 2 weeks created dizziness, nausea, and pain. Yet despite the antibiotic’s toxic intensity, the infection still wouldn’t completely heal, AND my body was now additionally ravaged by the antibiotics! I was feeling frustrated and wondered if my infection would EVER heal. A voice in my head moaned, “I’m doomed.”

Like attracts like, and sure enough, that attitude invited in a cascade of more evidence of doom: A blood test that was taken to determine the nature of the infection showed that I’m pre-diabetic. WTF!? I have an extremely strict diet and eat minimal sugar and starches, and yet I’m pre-diabetic!? Then a friend told me that the carrot juice I drink everyday is loaded with sugar and that could be what’s causing the high blood sugar. My moaning, groaning, doom and gloom voice whined, “Here I am trying to be healthy by drinking carrot juice every day and it’s doing more harm than good!”

Fortunately, I’ve been eavesdropping on my Debby Downer Doomsayer, and remembered that I have a choice. Richard Bach said, “Argue for your limitations, and sure enough they are yours.” At the same time, argue for your blessings and they are also yours. Therefore, I decided to focus only on my blessings, chief among them: my fabulous husband Tom and our rich, loving, fun relationship, the warmth and beauty of my hometown Santa Barbara, my deep and dear relationships with friends and family, and my kick-ass soul that has come to schoolhouse earth for maximum learning and growth.

In just one day of focusing on my blessings, a major shift happened…I became a blessings magnet! What we focus on increases, and I was now magnetizing blessings into my life. One of the blessings I attracted was a natural solution that heals my particular type of staph infection (turmeric applied externally to the infection, and taken internally via 1 teaspoon in water 3 times a day). Lo and behold, my infection has finally healed! Turmeric is also known to have healing properties for cancer, so as I continue with this high dose of turmeric, I’ve relaxed into a sense of wellbeing about my health in general.

Turmeric also helps lower blood sugar. In addition, I’ve stopped drinking carrot juice and am drinking green juices instead, increasing my feeling of vibrance and vitality. Having this infection forced me to get a blood test, which alerted me to my high blood sugar and got me to make changes to correct it…so the infection itself has actually proved to be a blessing!

Doom and Gloom is an old familiar pain body of mine that came to visit me for a bit to remind me that I have a choice of how I want to feel and what I want to attract. It also motivated me to raise my healing regimen to an even higher level. Another benefit of counting my blessings is that it created a relaxation in me that allowed my immune system to do its job; negative energy suppresses the immune system, while a positive attitude enhances it. As soon as I shifted my focus to counting my blessings, my blessings multiplied like bountiful, beautiful, benevolent bunnies!

How about you? What are you magnetizing into your life right now? What would you like to magnetize?

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Jan 13 2013

A ‘Cluster Flock’ of Learning – Issue #99

Recently a cluster of similarly themed messages have been flocking my way (I call it a learning ‘cluster flock’). The current message that keeps recurring for me is this: it is my choice to enjoy or not enjoy life. Little pesky fears about my health have been buzzing around me like gnats. In response to that, I recently awoke with this thought, “Just enjoy your life right now. No matter what may happen in the future, DECIDE to thoroughly enjoy today.”

An hour later Tom came home from Toastmasters and told me that someone there had read a piece from the book, Man’s Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl (the quintessential “Choose how you want to feel” guy). He was in a concentration camp with a young woman who knew that she would die in the next few days, but in spite of that, she was cheerful. He asked her how she could be so cheerful and she said, “I am grateful that fate has hit me so hard. In my former life I was spoiled and did not take spiritual accomplishments seriously.” She pointed out the window where she could see one branch of a chestnut tree with two blossoms on it. She told him that she often talked to the tree, and the tree spoke to her, saying, “I am here–I am here–I am life, eternal life.”

Later on that same a day a friend of mine told me that the Cat Stevens song, “If You Want to Sing Out”, was playing in her head over and over. One verse goes like this: “If you want to live high, live high. If you want to live low, live low. ‘Cause there’s a million ways to go, you know that there are.” It was contagious and started playing repeatedly in my mind too. I’m finding that when stuck in the trance of stinking thinking, that song is a perfect trance buster; it wakes me up to the awareness that I have a choice about how I want to feel.

I had the opportunity to try it out recently when my Chopped Liver persona was beginning to gather momentum. Tom and I hadn’t seen each other yet that day, and when I walked into the room he was watching TV. He kept watching TV, and eventually looked up at me and said a tepid “Good morning.” That was the view through my Chopped Liver filter anyway. I addressed what I was feeling, and as we talked about it, I could feel dopamine and adrenaline flooding my body, feeling so good to feel so bad, so right to feel so wronged!

But I chose to bust that trance by singing in my mind the Cat Stevens song (adding some of my own words), “If you want to feel stuck, feel stuck, if you want to feel free, feel free. There’s a million ways to be, you know that there are.” (I then owned with Tom how when he walks in the room and I’m on the computer, I feel reluctance to interrupt my focus — exactly what I was accusing him of doing!)

To complete this cluster flock, I recently saw the movie, Nicholas and Alexandra. At the end of the movie the Russian czar and his family were imprisoned in a holding room, unsure of their fate, and in a moment of total clarity and joy Nicholas resoundingly exclaimed, “It is so GOOD to be alive!” Yes, it is! I choose to thoroughly enjoy this moment, this day, this life!

How about you? Have you had a cluster flock of learning lately? Are you faced with a choice of feeling good or feeling bad? I’ll leave you with Cat Steven’s trance-busting words (you can be creative and substitute your own words if you like):

If you want to live high, live high

And if you want to live low, live low

‘Cause there’s a million ways to go

You know that there are.

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Dec 10 2012

I’m Losing My Mind, YAY! Here’s How: – #98

In a recent interview, Eckhart Tolle told Oprah that years ago, when he was a scholar and doctoral candidate at Cambridge University in England, he was severely depressed, tormented by persistent negative thoughts, and was contemplating suicide. At the time, he said to himself, “I can’t live with myself anymore.” That sparked an epiphany, a clear awareness of his egoic mind versus his true self, and it catapulted him into the present and changed his life forever. He quit his secure position at the university, and spent his days sitting on a park bench enjoying his newfound peace and sharing with others about ‘the power of now’.

Oprah asked him how the people in his life reacted to his sudden change, and he said, “My mother thought I’d lost my mind.” Oprah smiled and said, “You did lose your mind!” They both laughed. He lost his painful egoic mind and gained the expansive peaceful presence of his true self.

There’s a saying, “Of all the things I’ve lost, I miss my mind the most.” For me, of all the things I’ve lost, I miss my mind the LEAST. I sometimes had a chatterbox mind; when I was unsettled, my busy mind was like a crazed acrobat, tumbling from thought to thought, leaping to conclusions. After my cancer diagnosis (wow, almost 4 years ago), a whole circus of crazed acrobats was unleashed in my mind! I felt highly motivated to calm those painful tumbling fears and imaginings. As a result of my efforts, I’m delighted to say…I am losing my mind! (and gaining so much more!) I’d like to share with you the ways I’m doing that.

The key is bringing awareness to the breath and body. Eckhart Tolle said, “You need an anchor for presence, and the inner body is a wonderful anchor for the state of presence.” When we focus on the body, the mind becomes quieter, because we’re no longer giving it attention. Before my diagnosis, I don’t think I’d ever fully committed to being in my body. Now I am fully occupying and feeling the dynamic aliveness of this earth suit! Here are three areas of my body that especially have become allies in stilling my mind and anchoring peaceful presence.

HEART: When I’m trying to go to sleep and my mind is restlessly chattering, I bring my awareness to my heart, and start breathing through my heart; soon my mind settles down and I fall asleep! When I’m with someone and notice judgmental jabbering in my mind, I send a beam of light from my heart to theirs, and I immediately feel more peaceful, loving, and connected (with them as well as myself). The Institute of HeartMath says that bringing awareness to our heart, breathing through our heart, and imagining someone or something we love, puts our body in a measurable state of coherence and harmony. This is a healing state; it’s the state I want to live in.

ABDOMEN: When worry thoughts start to churn, I take deep slow abdominal breaths (the belly expands with each inhalation). This simple act not only brings me instantly present, it also activates the relaxation response, the lymphatic system, and the immune system! And I feel more juicily alive!

FEET: When I’m walking and find my mind blathering away about something, I bring my awareness to my feet: I breathe in, up from the earth into my feet, and I breathe out through my feet, feeling supported, connected, and held by mother earth.

Bringing awareness to ANY part of our body helps calm the mind and anchor presence. This is something I’ve wanted and needed to learn how to do in this life. I can imagine my soul saying, “We need to be more present in our body, in our heart, feeling our feet on the ground, breathing deeply, and being fully grounded in spirit and in this life. I know just the thing that will motivate us to do that…the answer cancer!”

I answered that call to more vivid, committed aliveness, and because of that, for me, cancer has been the ultimate life enhancer, helping me lose my troubled mind (much of the time), and gain the spacious present. This foray into peaceful presence may even be what’s healing the cancer. What a lovely design – cancer made me more present, and that presence is healing the cancer! (At least, that is the story I’m telling myself, and I like that story!)

How about you? What are ways that help you lose your mind, and anchor peace, presence, and harmony in your life?

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Oct 23 2012

How to Expand Time: 5 Ways to Enter the Spacious NOW – #97

Since my cancer adventure began, I’ve been motivated to live fully while I’m alive, savoring each moment, relishing this precious life. As a result of that, something wonderful has happened: the quality of time has changed for me…time has miraculously expanded! I told a friend about this recently and she, being a busy person who’s always crunched for time, was genuinely intrigued, “How do you do that? How do you expand time?” I started thinking about it: exactly how DO I do that? Here’s what I’ve learned:

1. Notice:

The first and most important thing I do is become aware that I’m NOT present. I notice what’s happening in my mind and body: I’m in my head, in the future or past, I’m tense, shallow breathing, not feeling my feet on the ground, and generally having an ‘out of body’ experience. Just the act of noticing brings about more spaciousness.

2. Get over yourself:

I become aware of my posture: When I’m not present, I’m usually either hurtling forward, ungrounded, ahead of myself, or turtling inward, head scrunched down and shoulders raised. I then shift by straightening myself up and reminding myself, “Get over yourself, feel your feet on the ground, and feel yourself solidly over your feet.” Several years ago I was shuffling along, busy in my head about some future event, not aware of my feet on the ground, and I tripped on a crack in the sidewalk. Down I went, HARD, crashing my cheek onto a car bumper on the way down – I was literally grounded! From then on, whenever I walk I become aware of feeling my feet firmly on the ground, with my body over my feet, and, as Thich Nat Khan says, “My feet kiss the ground with every step.”

3. Breathe:

Shallow breaths sustain a shallow life; deep full breaths sustain a deep full life. When I notice my breath is shallow, I take deep, slow, soft breaths, breathing in up through my feet and breathing out down through the top of my head; breathing life and being breathed by life. That instantly delivers me to the spacious present. “He lives most life whoever breathes most air.” –Elizabeth Barrett Browning

4. Affirmations:

In Aldous Huxley’s novel, Island, the myna birds say over and over again, “Here and now boys, here and now.” When I find myself rushing, futuring or past-ing, I say, “Present moment, only moment.” I also say, “No hurry, no worry.” Mindfulness teacher Jon Kabat-Zinn suggests that we say the words “This is it” throughout the day, reminding ourselves that right now is IT!

5. See and Savor:

I look and see where I am and who I’m with, softening my gaze, drinking it all in with present-moment baby eyes. I marvel at my surroundings, “Look at how blue the sky is today”, or “There are so many shades of green in that tree.” I appreciate where I am, relishing what’s present, counting my blessings, thankful for this moment, grateful for this life. I was enjoying a delicious lunch at a Thai restaurant with Tom recently, and suddenly looked up from my food, and feasted my eyes on him, really seeing and appreciating the beautiful soul that he is, and feeling deep gratitude that he is in my life. Tom Yum!

When I’m scurrying about on the hamster wheel of life, time seems infernal; but when I stop spinning and fully embody this moment, time becomes eternal. Or, as I once wrote: When I immerse myself in the present moment and savor it like delicious candy, time stretches like taffy into a sweet eternal Nooow!

How about you? Are you feeling starved for time? Or are you at a banquet, fully tasting, savoring, and relishing each moment, having the time of your life?

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Sep 29 2012

Don’t Pray For, Pray FROM – #96

Tom and I were playing cards recently and it was my turn to draw a card. I needed a queen of hearts, so I decided to imagine and generate the energy of what it would feel like to draw the queen of hearts: my body softened and relaxed, my breath became smooth and easy, and a Mona Lisa smile rested on my face. I then drew my card with an attitude of gratitude for it being just the card I needed…and EUREKA!  It was the queen of hearts!

This is an example of praying ‘from’ instead of praying ‘for’ what I wanted. I put myself in the vibrational energy of having, instead of wanting. The dictionary describes the word ‘wanting’ as “lacking, not existing or supplied, absent.” EFT master Carol Look said, “We don’t get what we want – we get what we vibrate.” That is the great challenge of manifesting – to BE what it is we desire.

Studies show that the most effective form of prayer is imagining and feeling the energy of what we desire as if it’s already so. Native American rainmakers don’t pray for rain, they pray rain, imagining and feeling the wet, quenching rain. Tom told me that when he first came to California he walked along the ocean shore longing to see dolphins, but didn’t see any. His yearning had an energy of lack, as if he were saying, “I want it but I can’t have it.” Recognizing this, Tom decided to shift into feeling joy and gratitude for the dolphins he knew were there, and before you could say “leaping dolphins” they appeared!

The ability to BE the energy of what we desire is not always easy to do when our hardwired, habituated early programming is running the show; it has stubborn squatter’s rights and doesn’t want to budge. No matter how much we try to imagine, vibrate, and be what we desire, our unconscious programming is vibrating more strongly. That’s why it’s important to identify this sabotaging programming and bring it into the light of awareness.

I’m aware that I have programming installed from early childhood that expects something bad to happen to me, because some bad things involving illness and physical harm did happen to me when I was a child. My childhood conclusion was, “This is an unfriendly, dangerous world. I am not safe.” This belief was reflected in a recurring childhood nightmare I had in which I was terrified by a wolf that was trying to get me. I’ve been physically clenched, tensed, and braced for danger my whole life, and, like driving a car with the emergency brake on, it’s wearing and wearying. It makes sense to me that such chronic stress would suppress my immune system, letting in the big bad wolf called cancer.

Even though I’d been working on deprogramming fear and reprogramming wellbeing for many years prior to my diagnosis, (resulting in a multitude of fabulous people and events gracing my life), fear continued to be an ongoing factor for me, a dominant vibration that attracted like energy. My cancer has been a kick in the can to do even deeper work on facing and clearing my worst fears, and increasing my focus on vibrant health of body, mind and spirit. I think this is my ‘go for it’ lifetime, and I am going for it!

Towards that end, Tom and I do a ‘praying from’ practice every morning where we describe and feel our desired day as if it were already so. Mine usually goes something like this: “Today I feel vibrantly alive. I am grateful for all the blessings in my life. My immune system is strong and healthy. I feel safe in my universe, trusting that I am loved and guided. I know that I’m right where I’m supposed to be and I love where I am.” That energy vibrates like a tuning fork throughout my day.

Another ‘praying from’ practice I do is taking an afternoon walk everyday and saying “Yes Sets”, a series of persuasive truisms that get my mind nodding in agreement, and then I piggyback on my desired belief. For instance: “I am enjoying the sun’s warm caress. My feet gratefully kiss the ground with every step. I am filled with good feeling and good energy. I love being on this planet, in this earthsuit known as Janet. I love being in this vibrant, healthy, strong body.” And so it is.

How about you? Are you ‘wanting’ something in your life, but not having it? Are you praying ‘for’ instead of ‘from’ the energy of what you desire? Remember, “We don’t get what we want – we get what we vibrate.” What are you vibrating today? What would you like to vibrate?

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Aug 27 2012

The Big ‘SEE’: Ten Eye-Opening Lessons Learned From Cancer – #95

My diagnosis of uterine cancer over 3 years ago created an ‘emerge and see’ situation, forcing me to emerge to a higher perspective and see clearly what I needed to do to save and enrich my life. Cancer, like any life calamity, is a wake-up call. It opened my eyes in many profound ways — that’s why I call it The Big See! Here are the top ten things cancer has helped me see more clearly:

1. I see that it’s natural to feel fear about cancer. Cancer is scary. When I try to rise above my feelings, that just positions me better for them to bite me in the butt. Feelings deserve to be heard and honored. Instead of sitting on my feelings, I sit my feelings on my lap like a child and let them speak to me. Once they’re held and heard they start to relax and move through. Emotion is energy in motion.

2. I see that even though my mind always told me that I’m the biggest scaredy cat in the world, what I’ve actually discovered is that I am someone who has the courage to be present with my worst fears, one breath at a time. We have more courage and spirit than we know. When first confronted with adversity, it can seem that life has turned on us; but instead it has turned us ON! It has turned on the big, bright, luminous light of our soul, igniting our courage and strength, inspiring us to put on our big soul panties and deal with it.

3. I see that my experience with cancer has catapulted me into the here and now, helping me to value this moment and cherish life. With time possibly limited, I am motivated to deeply immerse myself in the present moment, savoring it like delicious candy, and to my great delight, time has stretched like taffy into a sweet eternal Nooow!

4. I see that when worries are nipping at my heels, that’s a reminder to take a deep breath, surrender, trust, and ease into that state of grace place where everything works out. Being in a state of grace is being in the flow where synchronicity occurs, coincidences happen, just the right people, books, and events present themselves, and things work out better than I can imagine. It is the realm of unlimited possibilities. It is my “Trust” fund, which I have access to at any time.

5. I see that when our world is blown apart, we are freed from the safety and inertia of the familiar, and are challenged to make changes, take risks, and follow our hearts desire. Cancer has transformed my “someday” dreams into “today is the day, now is the time.” There are many stories of people whose illness has completely healed once they started following their bliss and living a purposeful life.

6. I see that my ego and my soul have very different agendas: my souls passionate agenda is to learn and grow and evolve my consciousness, while my ego’s agenda is to have fun and avoid suffering. When cancer came a calling, my ego wailed in a Mr. Bill whine, “Oh Noooooo. Not another learning opportunity!” My spirit said, “Oh Yeah! Another opportunity to grow! Bring it on!” My ego moaned, “We are in deep doodoo!” My spirit exalted, “Rich compost, yay!” Ego scolded, “Now we’ve gone and done it…our fear has drawn the cancer to us!” Spirit exclaims, “Cool, cancer! It will help us come face to face with fear, feel it fully, and make friends with it!” Ego wants to run for the hills and be safe. Spirit wants to fly like an eagle as high as it can go, fully experiencing life, including fear. In times of crisis our frightened ego may feel like the sky is falling, yet our awakened spirit remembers, “I am the sky.”

7. I see that my thoughts can create heaven or hell, depending on where I’m choosing to dwell. I choose to see that cancer has composted a rich and fertile soil for me, from which is sprouting creativity, inspiration, love, and learning. It’s a fertile time or it’s a shitty time; same substance, different attitude.

8. I see that when I focus on deep breathing it boosts my immune system, activates the lymphatic system, triggers the relaxation response, and energizes and enlivens me. When I’m fully breathing, I’m fully alive. When I’m shallow breathing, I’m shallowly alive. As Elizabeth Barrett Browning said, “He lives most life whoever breathes most air.”

9. I see that as I’m facing my fear of death, I’m embracing it, rather than bracing against it. Leonard Cohen wrote, “If you don’t become the ocean you’ll be seasick every day.” When I come into harmony with all that floats and flounders about in my ocean, I am at peace. AND, since what you resist persists, maybe now that I’m no longer resisting death, it won’t be persisting!

10. I see that Love is the answer – loving my family and friends, loving what is, loving all my feelings about what is, loving myself for not loving what is. It’s all about love. The energy of love is tremendously healing, it boosts the immune system, and it just plain feels good. The word ‘heal’ literally means ‘to become whole’. As I love every part of me, including cancer, I become whole.

For me, cancer created a rebirth that’s grabbed me by the ankles, turned me upside down, and spanked me vividly alive! I’m seeing the world through brand new baby eyes. Cancer has been an illuminating, eye-opening, I-opening Big See!

How about you – in what ways have your life calamities opened your eyes and enriched your life?

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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Jul 16 2012

Turning Poison Into Nectar: The Secret to Optimal Nourishment – #94

“Never eat with people you don’t like because your state of awareness will influence how your food is metabolized.” This is what Deepak Chopra said in a 1993 interview with Oprah Winfrey. He talked about a study that was done where rabbits were fed a diet that was extremely high in cholesterol. The researchers were amazed and puzzled to find that one group of rabbits never got high cholesterol levels. They discovered that the technician who was feeding that group of rabbits would pet, cuddle, and talk sweetly to them, and because of that, their bodies metabolized the cholesterol in a healthy way. Deepak concluded, “Your state of mind can convert nectar into poison and poison into nectar.”

When I heard that, I felt concerned, and at the same time, I felt relieved. Concerned because since my cancer diagnosis I’ve been very careful with my diet, BUT, slowly, sugar has been creeping back in. I’m aware that sugar fuels cancer, and sometimes when I’m about to bite into a sweet treat, I wonder, “Is this REALLY to die for?” Now, after hearing what Deepak said, I realize that whatever I’m eating, if I eat it with fear and worry and negative feelings, that makes it even more toxic to my body. Yikes!

On the other hand, I’m relieved to know that if I change my relationship to food, if I align with it, savor it’s deliciousness, imagine that it’s nourishing me, and feel good about it, that helps convert poison into nectar. That’s not to say that I’m going to start pigging out on sweets. I still plan to keep sugar to a minimum. But I’ve been so afraid of ‘killer’ sweets, that I’ve even feared fruits, especially bananas. Now, I will love the banana (or raw honey, or any other natural sweet that I’m eating) and thank it for its nourishment and sweet yumminess.

I can see why saying grace before a meal helps prepare our bodies to best metabolize the food and optimize its healing benefits. I intend to bring grace to my meals from now on, focusing on gratitude for the food, for the good people I’m eating with, for myself for choosing good food and good people, thankful for the nourishment, seeing my cells and organs thriving and jiving, blissed out and blessed.

Are you mindful of your mood when you eat your food? Remember, “Your state of mind can convert nectar into poison and poison into nectar.” Eat with love, and with people you love!

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen


Here’s my favorite healthy sweet treat that I eat almost every day.


1 TBSP coconut oil

1 TBSP raw cacao

1 TBSP mashed banana

1/2 TBSP almond butter (or tahini)

1 TBSP chopped walnuts

(Optional: add 1 Tsp of raw honey or a pinch of stevia to make it sweeter)

Mix together and spoon onto aluminum foil, shaping it into a patty. Put it in the freezer to harden (about ten minutes). Eat in joy!

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