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Oct 08 2013

Cosmic Re-Parenting – Issue #104

Several years ago I went to the late great Marty Weiner, Feldenkrais practitioner and healer extraordinaire, to help me deal with my chronic tension. After mindfully observing me, he said slowly in his distinct Boston accent, “Feel your ass on the chair.” He could see that I was scrunched up, trying to rise above my body. I’ve always remembered those words and say them to myself often, reminding myself to come back down to earth, back into my body.

I’ve become aware that my lifelong tension, with its physical tightness and shallow breath, distances me from my body, my spirit, and this earth experience. It makes reality seem less real, and that’s the whole purpose – I think at an early age I figured out if I breathe shallowly and tense my body it would somehow protect me. The tension helped me hold myself together and helped separate me from a scary and uncertain world.

My husband Tom shared with me a powerful visualization exercise he learned from his mentor, Dick Olney, which helps dislodge the ‘hold myself together’ life strategy. It goes like this:

Imagine that a giant hand comes down from the sky and grabs you by the waist, picks you up, and starts vigorously shaking you up and down and all around. This is done with such force that your arm flies off, then the other arm, then a leg, and the other leg. As the shaking continues, your head flies off. The giant hand finally tosses you to the ground where your body parts are strewn around you. There lies your torso with your heart still beating. Now, imagine that your heart is like a powerful magnet drawing all your body parts toward you and one by one they rejoin you. You have come back together, centered around your heart.

When I did this visualization it felt good to be shaken free, to let go, to let it all go. And it felt even better to come back together reorganized around my heart. This has been my experience with cancer – cancer was that giant hand grabbing me and shaking me loose from chronic resistance and fears, and refocusing me on what speaks to my heart.

One of the things I do daily to help maintain that heart focus and tension release is what I call Cosmic Re-parenting walks. As I walk I give my weight to the earth, feeling my feet connecting with the ground, letting myself feel held, nourished, and nurtured by Mother Earth, and imagining the top of my head open to receive guidance and inspiration from Father Sky. Trusting. United. Safe. One breath at a time. One step at a time.

There’s a saying, “She’s so heavenly minded, she’s no earthly good.” Or conversely, “She’s so earthly minded she’s no heavenly good.” This walk is a melding of earth and spirit. It’s recommitting to being here, deeply connected with my body, heart, and soul.

Thich Nhat Khan wrote: “The miracle isn’t walking on water, it’s walking on earth, fully present, our feet kissing the ground with every step.”

I’m happy to be here, fully present, feeling my ass on the chair, my feet on the ground, and my heart full of gratitude for this life.

How about you? Are you fully in your body? Do you feel your ass on the chair, and your feet on the ground? If not, be on the lookout for that giant hand in the sky.

In Love,

Jan Jacobsen

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